“People say I love you all the time - when they say, ‘take an umbrella, it’s raining,’ or ‘hurry back,’ or even ‘watch out, you’ll break your neck.’ There are hundreds of ways of wording it - you just have to listen for it, my dear.”—The Curious Savage (John Patrick)
“People by nature are very afraid to feel pain. But often the thought of pain is actually worse than the pain itself. It’s never as bad as you think it’s going to be. And you can’t get over the heartbreak until you let yourself feel it. Sorry, Charlie, but that’s the fact. It’s like any grieving process - if you bury the pain deep down it will stay with you indefinitely, but if you open yourself to it, experience it, and deal with it head-on, you’ll find it begins to move on after awhile.”—Greg Behrendt & Amiira Ruotola-Behrendt
1. it’s crazy how easy it became for me to forget about you. i laugh about all the stupid choices i made, and the stupid things i ever said to you. you’ll probably be my biggest kept secret. i’m still traumatized. 2. i think i’m getting a lot better at understanding you now. but that doesn’t change the fact that i grow devil horns out of my head every time i hear something about you. i’ve never disliked someone so much in my life ‘til you came along. 3. you were right. we both had wrong reasons to be talking to each other. even though i knew it, it didn’t mean as much until i heard it from you. loneliness shouldn’t be our only connection, it isn’t enough. i still meant everything i said though. 4. i miss talking to you and laughing about stupid shit. if i had just gone home, or even went to that other party instead that night then everyone would be good. i still can’t believe everything that happened, and how we ended up like this. 5. you give me every reason to think you’re full of shit. we’ve come so far and gotten through so much together, but i honestly think this may be the end. convince me otherwise though, please.
What's your definition of happiness? (be specific hah)
omg i’m so lazy haha but i’ll try i guess. happiness to me is like a combination of feeling accomplished, relieved, and loved.. because those are like the best feelings in the world. not worrying about bullshit. to be satisfied. not to settle, but actually get what you deserve. good company, good music, and good food is happiness enough for meeee. idk. blah. but damn, who is this?! you ask such good questions.
1. even though i already made up my mind about you from the very beginning, you still give me that feeling of comfort whenever we talk. i know that you’re one of those people i can go to if i needed someone, and i’m really thankful for that. 2. there’s a lot of things i want to tell you, but i can’t because i know you won’t like it. i’d like to think that we’re pretty close and i could tell you my news without you thinking i’m the bad person. i mean, you probably already know, but whatever. 3. i’m never sure what to think when it comes to you. i wish you’d just tell me what you’re thinking or tell me what you want. it’s funny too, because one of the things you said that one night was exactly was i was thinking and hearing you say it out loud made me appreciate you so much more. if you only knew. 4. things have been getting a lot better and i know you see it too. this doesn’t change everything i said though. i feel like it’s so easy for you to disregard all the things i’ve told you because you know how i am. but with everything going on lately, i find myself thinking about you more. i try to stop though because i know i’m getting ahead of myself. 5. i promise to talk to you more about this soon, but i want you to know my intentions are for the better.